Codependency is one of my weak points. Relationships stick with me forever like an STD no penicillin can cure. My immune system can't flush out the infection of past memories; my brain can't remember to forget the times wasted trying to change the inevitable.
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September 23rd, 2010 - November 24th, 2010... a relationship moonshine can't even wash away. R.I.P: to rest; no resting is involved with the unfinished business waiting to be completed. I, for one, do not wish to unravel the mummies of past boyfriends. I like to keep them in their coffins and to not be bothered for the rest of my life.
When an ex-boyfriend messages you about how breaking up with you was such a mistake, you must not forget the things he did to break up with you; in my case, a GIRL, mind you, he broke up with me. Twice. My codependency keeps me on my boyfriend's chain, reeling me back in whenever he wants me for his disposal. Only being abused by that chain over and over again until the pain is unbearable will you finally learn where the chainsaw is hidden. The chain is still tied to your ankle, but you allow nobody to use it as a leash. Ever again.
Pull out the headstone and dig up the body. Look at it. Look at the maggots feasting on the negative thoughts. They are your sign of the withering tissue and skin your once-healthy relationship upheld. No more Botox or surgery; this body is already buried, and buried it will stay.
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"Him closing his eyes to me opened my eyes to him."
~Tigress Luv
(Her's was: "His closing his eyes to me, opened my eyes to him", but I just fixed it. All credit still goes to her though. Link to her website: http://tigressluv.com)
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